LIFE OF AGONY LYRICS

1. Seasons

[Lyrics by - Keith Caputo]
[Music by - Sal Abruscato and Keith Caputo]

It disturbs me to see that you're gorwing old
It concerns me to be the one you want to hold
Too busy running on fuel
Thand God you made it through
Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold

Lost as father and son
Bring us back together as one
Seasons change and so did your son
Strife with emotions that can't be one
Too busy running on fuel
Thank God you made it through
Let's spend the times we've missed and turn these days to gold

Want to hand you a piece of my delicate heart
This song is to uplift you and not to tear you apart
Father's lost in the mountains
But no mountain I can't see
But if that mountain should crumble come crumble on top of me

2. I Regret

[Lyrics by - Alan Robert]
[Music by - Alan Robert, Sal Abruscato, and Keith Caputo]

I know my days are numbered
I've been in and out of phase
But these days keep passing me by
Good never comes my way
Try to sit back and relax
Try and think of something good
Something else
Something pure
I can't but know I should
Things I should have said
Things that I regret
And I regret
No more waiting for something better to come along
It's much easier to change me than it is to change them all
Things I should have said and things that I regret
Need to shed all my skin and start again
Every turn I make is wrong
I haven't smiled in so long
Shed my skin and start again
The memories that I once had of the good time
We all used to have
Shed my skin and start again

3. Lost At 22

[Lyrics by - Alan Robert]
[Music by - Alan Robert and Sal Abruscato]

If I knew what to do I'd do it
If I knew where to go
I'd get there someday
If I knew how to fly
I'd fly away and forget about life for a while
But it never is that easy
To just pick up and go
And do as you're told
'cause life never works out that way
If it were true the skies would be full every day
If I knew how to fly
I'd fly away
Well I'm lost at 22
And I've got no fuckin' clue
No I don't know if things will work out right
I'm lost and confused
I'm lost at 22
And I don't knwo if my life's gonna end up right
'cause they keep on telling me
That I'm young, dumb and naive
But that's just what they want me to believe
Well I'd rather be lost at sea
Than become part of this society
Where the grass is always gree
And the air is always clean
At least that's what they want me to believe
I'm lost at 22
I'm lost at 22
I'm lost

4. Other Side Of The River

[Lyrics by - Alan Robert]
[Music by - Alan Robert and Joey Z.]

There's blood on the floor
And you're not even moving
Don't really know if it's mine or yours
But you aint moving
Eyes are ide as you grin at me
You know there's a place that you'd rather be
But if you should die and I survive
How could I go on knowing that I am still alive
Here breathing
There's a beast that's living deep within me
Forcing me to feed all my needs
Yeah he's in me
And he brought us here to end our fears
To wave goodbye to all of the tears
To start a new life on the other side of the river
Well my world would be over
Hold on, hold on, I won't be long
Wait for me, man, I won't ne long
You were such in a rush to reach the other side
Look at yourself with that look in your eye
Smilimg wide and pre-occupied with that river
Well my world would be over

5. Let's Pretend

[Lyrics by - Keith Caputo]
[Music by - Keith Caputo]

In the stillness of the night
My eyes are closed
My mouth is wide
I could see her face
Her beautiful hair
I could recognize
She looks at me cold
She probably don't know who I am
Mommy it's me
It's Keith
You had me back when
But sometimes I like to pretend
That she knows me
That she holds me
I quess I can't
Because show doesn't know who I am
My mind it's dreaming
God it's so misleading
Do you think it's 'cause I've grown old
Is it true what I was told
You cried to leave me
You know I know it's not your fault
You had a husband who was selfish and cold
Belive me I know
Now I hear you used to treat me cold
You dissappeared and left me all alone
I'm sure you didn't know right from wrong
'cause both of you were always getting stoned

6. Ugly

[Lyrics by - Alan Robert]
[Music by - Alan Robert, Sal Abruscato and Keith Caputo]

Have you ever woke up screaming?
Have you ever woke alone?
When the walls around you won't stop laughing
Where do you go?
Sweat seeps in your eyes at night
And you realize
That no one understands you at all
Well I was bound to have a nervous breakdown
Should've seen it coming from miles away
So I packed my bags and started running
My brains been shaking since yesterday
But there's only so far that you can run boy
There's only so far to leave your problems behind
'cause when the problem's yourself you start thinking
No matter how far
You'll never leave it behind
No one uderstands me at all
Now I'm 22 with still no clue
Of who I am or show I'm supposed to be
I know it to you it sounds funny
You've got it worked out like it's a fuckin' disease
Started asking myself do I fit in?
Where I belong
Could this really be me?
Been feeling downright ugly
Tell me is this the way it's supposed to be?
So what's the difference?
You're doing fine
The clock keeps ticking as you lose your mind
The one you need to call you
Never calls
Sweat seeps in your eyes at night
And you realize
That no one understands you at all

7. Drained

[Lyrics by - Alan Robert]
[Music by - Alan Robert and Sal Abruscato]

They'll make you or break you
They'll swallow you whole
They'll find you and bind you
To every word that they own
But you know yhat you need them
So you continue to feed them
So I hope that you're in this
For all the right reasons
They can't make you feel something you don't believe in
But they can threaten your future
And everything in it
When you fail to remember just where you've been
When you can't tell up from down
How do you write from within?
And all I know is that they're
They're trying to squeeze me dry
They told me
They own me
And all I know is that they're
They're trying to squeeze me dry
I look in the mirror and what do I see?
A man staring back at me who used to be me
He looks so familiar
He once had big dreams
But I can't see that he's been drained of his soul and inte-
grity

8. How It Would Be

[Lyrics by - Keith Caputo]
[Music by - Keith Caputo]

I wonder how it would be if my mother was still around
The type of talk
The relationships we could have had
The three of us
Me, you, and dad
My mouth went dry
My stomach felt queasy too
So empty and scared
It's all because of you
A dead body that turned out not to be dead
No one understands
Wish I really knew what happened to my mom
Because my family
They told me nothing but lies
They figured if they just told me the truth
I'd break down and cry
Feel betrayed and hurt
Profoundly insecure
Want to know ten times on Heaven's door
Still suffering from old emotional wounds
I was getting worse
Can't depend on them and their lies
Why did she leave?
How did she die?
And when it gets colder outside
I'll be back next year
With that feeling to make me cry
Wanna go visit her grave
Because it's been such a long, long time
Want to pick a peach rose
and rest it on its side
Say a prayer even though I don't believe
And say goodbye
Don't get me wrong
I have a mind to keep me strong
But there's this feeling of not knowing what went wrong
And how she's dead and gone
Don't think anyone thinks
Of you as much as I do

9. Unstable

[Lyrics by - Alan Robert]
[Music by - Alan Robert and Sal Abruscato]

This cancer is killing me
As much as it's killing you
If it takes you away from me
I don't know what I would do
Just try for some peace of mind
But it's so hard to find
It's so hard to just sit and wait
And wait some more
Staring at the door
Skim through the magazines
Pretend like everything's gonna be alright
Although you know it won't be
Unstable
It's hard to be the one who's strong
Who's always got a shoulder to cry on
Who's got a shoulder for me?
When I'm about to breakdown
You're never around
But maybe it's better that way
You've got enough to worry about
You've got your hands full don't you
Don't you see?
This cancer is killing me
Like it's killing you
Mentally
Unstable
And all I really want to know is if she's going to be alright

'cause she's benn in there a long, long time
And I've been out here losing my mind
You're scared
You're frightened
You're so afraid of what he may say
But you try and be brave
For me sitting impatiently
In the lobby of emergency
You burst on through that door with this look on your face
I've never seen before
You explode into endless tears
Whisper in my ear
Baby
Baby
I've only got one more year
Unstable

10. Damned If I Do

[Lyrics by - Alan Robert]
[Music by - Alan Robert, Sal Abruscato and Keith Caputo]

Why do I feel so alone in a crowd of people I know
Is it wrong to feel so insecure so unappealing?
Why walk around in disquise with a fake grin on my face?
What would it prove?
What would I gain?
I'd still feel so out of place
Damned if I do
Damned if I don't
But I won't turn out like you
Midlife crisis at age 22
Who knew?
I need some answers
Cross the street and down the avenue
I stopped for the woman
Paid five bucks and got my palm read
And she said
You shouldn't be smiling boy
This life line ays you're already dead
Just keep on moving forward never turning back
But with every step ahead I take they pull me two steps back
They pull me two steps back

11. Fears

[Lyrics by - Alan Robert]
[Music by - Alan Robert and Sal Abruscato]

No one knows what it's like
No one knows how it feels
Nothing else could compare to the fears I fear
And I've never been on my own
Struggling all alone
And all I have are these clothes on my back and this song
I never had much I never believe I could be
Someone, somehow, somebody
Said goodbye to all my childhood hopes and dreams
Time to grow up and accept real life responsibilities
Listen
Won't you listen to the things I have to say
'cause it just might affect the way that you think about
How you live from day to day
It may be easy for you
But it seems like hell to me

12. Don't You (Forget About Me)

[Lyrics by - Steve Schiff and Keith Forsey]
[Music by - Keith Schiff and Keith Forsey]

Won't you come see about me?
I'll be alone dancing, you know it baby
Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving everything inside and out

Love's strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on
Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't you forget about me
Don't, don't, don't, don't,
Don't you forget about me

Don't you try to pretend
It's my feeling we'll win in the end
I won't harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security, well...

Don't you forget about me
I'll be alone dancing, you know it, baby
Going to, I'll you take you apart
I'll put us back together at heart, baby

Don't you forget about me
Don't, don't, don't, don't,
Don't you forget about me
Don't you forget about me
Don't, don't, don't, don't,
Don't you forget about me
Don't you forget about me

Will you stand above me?
Look my way, never love me
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey, ooh, yeah, yeah, yeah...

Don't you forget about me
Don't, don't, don't, don't,
Don't you forget about me

But you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk away

Will you walk away?
Will you walk away?
Come on, baby, call my name
I said, "Will you call my name?"

I say...
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LIFE OF AGONY LYRICS