"Shipboard Cook" lyrics

I wanna go to the ocean and send a postcard of my loneliness
Forgetting you is so elusive
I run away but it's always this
You're the only one
I love
It's always been you

And I wish I was conscripted in the Merchant Marines
Shanghaied into service of sails and machines, just to stay alive
And my sister keeps it simple she's a shipboard cook
She can drive a line, but if you take a look, she's kinda worried though

'Cause I keep hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
Hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
I'm always a ghost

I tried your gypsy table ramblings and your seance stunt
I keep an open mind but I think it's just a front
Want to believe it though
My sister says: "Forget her boy, that's all that you need"
Pitching magical elixirs and bottles full of mead for a broken heart
It's too late for that

So light em up boys here's to your youth
Sing loud enough to tell the truth
I lost myself and that's where I lost you
Ohh oh oh, let go of that whipping post
I'm always a ghost

You're about as haunted as a darkened basement
I've got all the chances of a dog in a settlement
I live by her secrets, she'll never tell
I ride along without 'em on a deep sea swell
I heard there's someone new, and she starts to talk
She's the merry widow on the widow's walk
And the fear is I'm the one no matter where you are
In this twisted, fucked up film noir

And I'm hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
Hoping you will find me
I keep hoping you will find me
Yeah yeah
So light em up boys here's to your youth
Sing loud enough to tell the truth
I lost myself and that's where I lost you
Ohh oh oh, let go of that whipping post

I'm always a ghost
I'm always a ghost
I'm always a ghost
I'm always a ghost
I'm always a ghost

So light em up boys here's to your youth
Sing loud enough to tell the truth
I lost myself and that's where I lost you
Ohh oh oh, let go of that whipping post
I'm always a ghost
So light em up boys here's to your youth
Sing loud enough to tell the truth
I lost myself and that's where I lost you
Ohh oh oh, let go of that whipping post
I'm always a ghost