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No, I don't wanna hate you
Just wish you'd never gone for the man
And waited two weeks at least before you'd let him take you
I kind of knew you liked the dude from private school
He's waiting for the time to move
I knew he had his eyes on you
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He's not the right guy for you
Don't hate me 'cause I write the truth
No, I would never lie to you
But it was never fine to lose you
And what a way to find out
It never came from my mouth
You never changed your mind
But you were just afraid to mind out
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I won't be changin' the subject, I love it
I'll make your little secret public, it's nothing
I'm just disgusted with the skeletons you sleep with in your closet
Trapped and I'm lackin' sleep
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Fact is, you're mad at me because I backtrack so casually
You're practically my family
If we married, then I'll guess you'd have to be
But tragically, our love just lost the will to live
But would I kill to give it one more shot?
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Recently I tend to zone out
Up in my headphones to Holocene
You promised your body but I'm away so much
I stay more celibate than in a monastery
I'm not cut out for life on the road
'Cause I didn't know I'd miss you this much
And at the time we'd just go
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I guess I'm not the man that you need
Ever since you went to uni
I've been sofa surfing with a rucksack
Full of less cash and I guess that could get bad
But when I broke the industry
That's when I broke your heart
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I was supposed to chart and celebrate
But good things are over fast
I know it's hard to deal with and see this
I tend to turn you off and switch on my professional features
Then I turn the music off
And all I'm left with is to pick up my personal pieces, Jesus
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I never really want to believe this
Got advice from my dad and he
Told me that family is all I'll ever have and need
I guess I'm unaware of it
Success is nothing if you have no one there to share it with
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And since you left I've given up my days off
It's what I need to stay strong
I know you have a day job but mine is 24/7
I feel like writing a book
I guess I lied in the hook
'Cause I still love you and I need you by my side if I could
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The irony is if my career and music didn't exist
In six years, yeah, you'd probably be my wife with a kid
I'm frightened to think if I depend on cider and drink
I'll fall into a spiral and it's
Just hiding my misguiding thoughts that I'm trying to kill
And I'll be writing my will before I'm 27
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Go down in history as just a wasted talent
Or did I make a mistake erasing?
My thoughts just get ahead of me
Eventually I'll be fine, I know that it was never meant to be
Either way I guess I'm not prepared but I'll say this
These things happen for a reason and you can't change sh-
I'm sorry for the honesty
But I had to get this off my chest